Julie Triganne

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In an effort to make the work housed in our print issues available to a wider audience, yolk digitizes a select few pieces from each print issue. “Marriage is a house so lofty you can’t hear the streets” by Julie Triganne first appeared in the Vol. 4.2, Spring 2025 Issue.
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When I changed my status to ‘engaged,’
my ex sent me a message at 4:30 a.m.
I scrolled and scrolled; he brought up old pet names
and quoted lyrics to songs I’d loved, ending with,
I’m ready to be the man you want me to be.
After my wedding, he sent me another message
saying he was back in treatment, Step Nine:
do I accept his amends? This I joked about:
Who wants amends? What about a gift card?
Marriage makes a person pompous like that.
My husband and I got drunk at his best friend’s cottage.
There are photos of us plunging through the woods
wearing borrowed Wellingtons, laughing.
The first summer of our marriage his relatives kept dying.
We went to three burials. I remember dry heaving
in a parking lot before the after-funeral lunch,
nauseated by that behind-the-diner smell
of grease smelting in the bin. We fought about the normal things—
he put off cutting the hedges and the city fined us,
I couldn’t stop smoking, so I hid until I got tired
of hiding it and started smoking in public, in the worst places
too, like outside the mall, where people asked me for cigarettes,
and I could brandish my pack, to make him angry.
It feels good to make someone angry like it feels good
to say, “I’m married.” I’ve even whitened my teeth
in that wifely manner. Two more former friends messaged
me amends. One linked to her recovery blog
in which she wrote about how she’d hoarded trash
when she was using, infesting her apartment
with earwigs, but she got married, moved to B.C.,
had a daughter, and now, years later, she invites me
to follow her family homestead Facebook page.
Marriage—the prettiest of loopholes.
Julie Triganne is a poet from Tiohtià:ke (Montreal), completing her MA in Creative Writing at Concordia University. Julie’s work has been featured in carte blanche and Headlight Anthology.
Yolk acknowledges that our work in Tiohtià:ke/Montréal takes place on the unceded Indigenous lands of the Kanien’kehá:ka/Mohawk Nation. Tiohtià:ke is known as a gathering place for many First Nations, and we recognize the Kanien’kehá:ka as custodians of the lands on which we gather.
Yolk warmly acknowledges the financial support of the Canada Council for the Arts, Conseil des arts de Montréal, and the English Language Arts Network’s Trellis Micro-grant project, funded by The Department of Canadian Heritage’s Official Languages Support Programs.